"You are still punishing me... for did we not at least have a closer relationship than that of pure servant and master?" This wasn't her desire, though she did not understand her full desires well. Still, she felt this was more a harsh response to her uncertainty and fear than it had anything to do with her true heart's wish.

"If you would grant my desire, than grant that I be sent away or rejected from this life going forward. I have no wish to continue in such a distant place and would rather take rest with the cycle of life. If I am not at least your closest disciple, than I have no need for continuing this path."