"I want too much and it is conflicting. What am I to do with such feelings? It is frightening at times, how can I think of wanting to be in control? How can I think of holding you down? If I indulged in such things... what would happen? What if I gave offence? What if it was forsaking all that was left of my femininity?"

Firmness... what was firmness? What would be acceptable firmness....